After a long time in second life you learn to pick up on things that are not 100% like when you meet a person that constant have an excuse for not voice with you, I mean why not be honest if you are dating someone you like and want more than a sl fling. It is essential that you show yourself or voice, there are a lot of predators out there standing in line to use who ever come along. I seen a lot of them and you might have been close to become a victim yourself cause they are that good to blend in next to you, that it make it hard to pick them out. For as long as I can remember men have played women in SL, nothing wrong with that at all but if you get involved with someone who are a real women and did that without telling them that you are not a real woman that is cruel. At least if they look for a real life partner that many these days do, but if it is a sl thing then play the fantasy but do it good.
Back to what I wanted to talk about was all those that keep on with the lame excuses, like I met someone long ago she said she liked me and wanted to have more than a friendship I told her we should talk on voice so we could get to know each other faster that’s when the problems started.. First off they have no microphone or it is broken and they have still not bought a new one, does not mean its a man on other end yet some women special Europeans “can’t speak english / refuse..”. You might accept that they can’t talk right now so you wait a few weeks and it comes up again and you get served more excuses like “I have not spoken English in years”, well it’s about time you start then no need to be afraid to voice.
So many women I have met in past they serve you with so many excuses that they could get away with 5 years ago, but today and no way if that will happen. I even offered to buy a headset to one of my friends but all of sudden that person had to leave SL, I guess to go play another of her alt’s. At least I have the ball’s to tell people I meet in this world who I am in RL if that come to the table or if it is a need to know, if the other person really like you they take you as you are in the virtual world that is my experience. To run around and tell old outdated excuses only make you look like a complete idiot and by doing that people will assume that you are a guy pretending to be a woman, does not matter how good you look cause anyone with a brain can make an avatar look nice.
It prob will come like a shock for some of you but women special those younger than 40 are more liberal than those over 40, they are not expecting to find a man like figure in SL they take you as you are if you are honest and don’t act like a complete jerk. I once had a girlfriend that took me just as I was I only wish I had her still, but I guess it was part of my learning process to lose her to maybe gain some thing else that I have not found yet.
Last words for those it apply to, never to late to start be “cool”.
I am at this point now in my new second life as I have gone from mesh body and Catwa to the bright side of SL, a new shape more curves than I ever had and a bento head from same as the old. I know this is a lot of work the tweaking can make a person go crazy if you are a perfectionist, I cheated this time and bough a premade shape that I can play around with. Took me most of saturday and sunday to get as much done so I could dare be around other people without look like an alpha project, and now I look more like a beta + / almost done project.
Initial this was not part of my plan to look like this I had plans to look like I always have, with help of a friend I got a skin and a shape that gave me boobies and a bigger butt. Went from pale to tan I have been running away from this look for years, and it was not bad at all now I can blend in with a random curvy bimbo if i desire..lol..
No pictures as of now you need to draw a mental picture of how I might look like, I would think a curvy body, booty and a pair of bigger boobies will get you starting to make your mental image nice or give you nightmares…
Ps: Feel free to jerk off to the mental images…. he-he…
With close friends to hangout with I had no idea I would feel so lonely that I do these days, I more or less have been that for a year now. Trying hard to find the meaning in this world, but what ever I set myself out to do I can’t take my mind of someone who I used have close. I might sound like a complete stalker but I am not, I guess I am one of those hopeless romantic people who think everything can be fixed if you really want it to be.
I can only put the blame on myself this time as I have made some very stupid judgements, I was weak and did not understand the important of what I had and now I am paying the ultimate price called loneliness. There is nothing more to do I managed to chase this someone so far away. I have tried for a long time to get out of this funk but no matter where I go or what I see it all reminds me of her, even in my real life I can see things and I instant think of her in some way. I would hate to have to leave the virtual life I have to get over her but I fear this is the only way for me to get on with a life, or at least try make a life in the real.
One day when I was cleaning my Skype downloads I came over a photo of her, the brown hair in her face and the sweet eyes smiling at me. I had deleted in past things she sent me but this must be hiding somewhere and now it is the only thing I have left of her. I always have the memories of her and those I keep to myself.
I have been all over the grid trying to meet new people and make new friends, but when I see girls that look similar to her I just want to fall to the ground. How could I ever let this happen to end up in this way where I see nothing good in the horizon, it is vacation time very soon I have saved up money for almost 1 year to go very far away. There are so many places I never been and things I never seen, maybe it would take things off my chest to experience new things and stay away from virtual me.
Not so many days since she told me to leave her alone, not that I had done anything to her other than try in an idiotic way to get her back. I do understand that she have moved on and I have to make things work on my own, I just wish things where less complicated like it was when you where younger. Now that I am “old enough” I feel a big loneliness in my heart knowing I never will hear her voice again, and a tear in my eye when I do realize she is gone.
I always been a big fan of mainland even that it has a bad reputation with a wide range of crazy build metodes and objects scattered in the air on random. Never the less it has had a charm to it at least it did until the land sharks start to buy up every inch of the grid and rent out at high cost and some times they try to sell it at insane profit but most of the times they let it go back to Linden Labs.
To me that is a waste of time, money, energy but I guess it is easier to give back to the “man”, than sell cheap to the little man on the map. I have myself bough and sold mainland and have had a lot of luck, a few times I have got land right off LL that is very rare today. I would guess / assume some of these big land owners have a hand in a Lindens pocket since they magical seem to be there at the right times, that would be the only reason to how they get all these full sims nobody have seen up for grabs and by magic it belong to them.
It would be speculation and I am sure there are many others on the grid thinking same as me, most people are for sale for cents and worse. So the only way I have been able to find cheap land is to fly over the mainland sim by sim, hour by hour. If i actual was paid for all the time I had spent looking for land I would be smiling all the way to the bank, but the glamour for us mortal avatars is not as good as it might look like. I would guess most of the hobby land owners like myself have spent a lot of time find these gems, and not like some I suspect have it handed to them.
I have been monitoring the adult mainland in special for a long time and it appear to me most of the same parcels are for sale for months and even years, I might not be a professor in math but you would have to charge a substantial amount of real money to just get even on the rent the land owner(s) pay to LL to own mainland. And frankly how things are sold as of today it is for pennies and donuts.
I think it’s no wonder many of the land speculate go under with the prices they operate with, so to see that 60% of the adult land based on parcels pr sim is more or less for rent or sale I do not understand how they can keep it going. Why not drop prices so people can afford to buy it, nobody with a brain will pay the insane prices as today. I cannot imagine there is much to earn sitting on a load of unsold parcel just because one time a man or woman was able to sell their 512 for 25 times it real value. Those times are long time I once did sell a 512 sq m for 17500 and cost price was 512, that was a good day but I had it for about 4 months before selling it. I think the new owners where able to earn a little less when she sold it and then price went even lower for the 3rd owner and now there is nothing for sale there.
The day Sansar is online and operating I assume that’s the day a lot of mainland land owners will get to meet their maker so to speak, to bad it is not regulated in a different way like the premium land that LL gives to those who subscribe. I am a happy camper knowing I have no ties to mainland for now, vacation is around the corner and when I am back I am sure a lot of the properties have shifted owner or been taken by LL cause they set sell price insane high and rather lose money than lose face by selling at a lower price. The never-ending circle of being a land owner on mainland, finishing off with a picture taken off the adult part of mainland and part of Horizon that sadly have become another shitty place thanks to all who speculate that imagine the consumer actual will pay fantasy price for a virtual property.
I took the time to go and look at the hair fair and once I got there I was instant confused, I found it to be very much hard to navigate around could be a few teleport boards and they should have put things of certain categories stuff closer to each other. I am sure there are spots I never got around to see, was too much back and forth and that made me give up.
Also other friends I ask about the fair say they are somewhat disappointed over the hair, they where more concerned that the creators had not overdone themself in the creation phase. I liked most of the hair samples I have tested today and also the free gifts was cool, but it makes me sad when a creator charge 1$L for a gift that is greedy and I walk straight past their vendors not even a peak.
There you have it I did not buy any thing at the fair cause for one I was broke, and the I got some nice gifts I can use. It is a shame that every thing in this world cost a fortune, 300 a week from LL and what do you get for that not much would be the correct answer.